Okay. Two hours later, I can report that while it felt good to workout and I feel better in my conscience that illness did not put me off my exercise regime again ... what is really making me feel better is that I came home to calm children who had already been fed.
The freedom from meal prep, sit down, and clean up at the end of the day made me giddy. Thank you, THANK you to the wonderful woman who provides respite care!
I can't explain how good this feels. I just know I am capable of smiling again.